I desire to live free (wallflower diary)

If I could, but I know I will, I will the whole world for their thinking of system. I wish I've never been to school for cramming, I wish I could've gone to a school where I could practically do the things that I was interested in. I wish somebody would have told me that the things that I am reading in tedious way can also be learnt in very funny.

                              But I also believe that it is never too late to do something that is right and pleasing. So I still change my thinking, I challenge everyone to change me. I am still confused what I want to be, very confused so confused that I do every thing that comes in my mind even for a second. I do this so I could compare which thing I can do better than other or which thing I could do longer than other things. But all I found is chaos, chaos in my thinking, in my capacity of learning and desiring. I learn things a little late but when I do I attach my self to it and when the things becomes little familiar to me, it becomes less enjoyable to me. I don't know how to get focused on those things that I do naturally best. I am seeking for the thing that keep entertain me everyday and gives me challenge me everyday.
   I don't think that if I would get a chance to write my own story I will ever be able to write my story properly. or even if will start, I will get bore before I finish it. I like living unknown to tomorrow, and forgiven to past. I have no regrets to what I have missed or what I will achieve. I found it quite amusing how life is travelling step by step. It is good to watch it as a movie. I change the things when I think that this thing should be changed. I also think that it is in our hand to write our story for ourselves. We all are writing our story, we have given a blank copy by our creator, and now we all are writing stories everyday as a chapter. You wanna write a story. Ask a stranger about his/her life struggle you will find spice everywhere in everyone's daily life. Some people are there depressed even when they have millions and billions, and some are very happy because they found ten rupees on the road and they could eat a time food with it or a Vadapaav. So all I could expect from this life is to give me surprises. I don't think I should write it. or even if I have to then I am writing it right now. I believe that you can be anything at anywhere you want with whatever you have. Just do not regret keep moving, that's all it takes.
                   All it asks you to love it as much as you can. Love your work or your target more than the fear of getting defeated or failure. Failure is a sign that you have to try again, its a not yet sign. That you need to work more on your skills that's it. It doesn't mean that you can't do it, it is just a sign board. Take it as a lesson and move ahead.

I hope I have changed something after writing this. so this is how I will write :P ;)

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